assignmenting + blogging

• Supposed to be doing my assignment now. But am having a mental block in the middle of it and my eyelids are lead-heavy. If I pop a pillow near my head right now I'd probably sleep sitting upright like this. I so the sleepy huwaaa :(
  
  
• Life ain't all about sunshiny days and happy smiley faces. And these past few weeks have been proof of that for me. So stressed out with work, with people, with situations, and most of all with myself. I am in need of a good rest. Haven't had proper sleep in weeks.
  
  
• Sometimes when I feel really low I'd think about other people whose problems make mine seem insignificant and silly and not worth getting all emo about. And I'd feel more motivated to keep a positive mindset about things. But the problems would always creep up onto the ego and try to make itself the biggest problem anyone has ever felt and that it should be the centre of my attention. Bahh.
  
  
• Hoping for people to comfort me isn't the best solution either. Because the closer you are to them, the higher your expectation of them. And the worse you feel when you are let down. But it does work when a good friend sympathies and give me some encouraging words to dwell on. Actually, come to think of it, talking to people and getting their feedback makes a huge difference. Especially when you know they are sincerely listening to you. But I'm not so keen to tell everyone my little dilemmas. And so I keep them in my little head and hope maybe those people I am banking on to encourage and motivate me would eventually ask me about my less-happy disposition. I sound like a loser.
  
  
• Ok so I sound like a pathetic emo. But I am not feeling so good and I don't know how else to relieve myself. I'd probably feel a bit better tomorrow and cringe at the sappiness of this post. But what the heck. I'm so tired and in need of a quick fix now.
  
  
• To make it worse, I've only got myself to blame for whatever I'm feeling. You are the cause to the effects you are experiencing. Or something like that. I read that somewhere. But it wouldn't hurt to seek some attention and a few words of consolation. ... right....?
  
  
• A personal motivator right now wouldn't hurt. Any volunteers? :(
  
  
• I need to slow down, think before I act, and remain calm. Yes.
  
  
• Oh I think I just found the solution. I should read one of my self-help books. Ahaaa.. They always spur me into a renewed spirit for life and its challenges. Now why didn't I think of this sooner. Oh yea, coz I haven't had the time for a decent read this past few weeks. But after Friday (when I've submitted my hopefully-well-done assignment), I'd definitely pick up a self-help book to read.
  
  
• I guess I should sleep now. Tomorrow is another day of urgent pending work and wasiat cases follow-upping and EF financing application processing and assignment writing during lunch and worrying about things and feeling lonely coz bestfriend at office has been transfered to Sabah. Bring it on!
  
  
• Thank you for staying up with me. Made that bit of a difference. Really.